woo hoo

Been playing with a new program called monumalator. It allows me to chop beats and whatnot while they are playing in time via my padKontrol. It is awesome, and gives me more artistic avenues to explore. Getting some minor kinks out of the way, but it is mostly ironed out. Basically, this is my alternative to the monome. The monome (40h/64 in particular) is an interface with 64 buttons, that show via lcd lights on each button the relation and position to the samples I am playing and manipulating. It really gives me great artistic control. The real monome apps that are compatible with the 40h/64 are amazing, but this one in particular called _mlr is what I can control now. This will do until I can get a real monome. Besides, this will more than do as I am having so much fun and have new ways to express myself.

Album: A little behind again, with life and failures. But I still have the remaining 6 songs that I can bang out quickly. One song I am working on, and spent a lot of time on probably will not make it to the album. That usually happens to me, and I guess is part of the journey, just really frustrating. It seems the way things go is the really simple but banging songs I lose interest in and concentrate all my time to complicated blunders. Anyway. I am inspired with a couple pieces and am still shooting for this weekend. Even if the album is shorter, it will be strong. I think everything is strong, lol.

I guess what doesn't kill makes you stronger, after a bit. A few days ago I overheard someone talking about a song I was working on, without knowing I was there. The words fucking terrible and a few other strong negatives were thrown about. It sucks when people in your 'support group' are not honest with you. Makes me trust no one to be honest. My new slogan is "my song hopefully is not fucking terrible to you." I hope someone will like my music one day. The daunting.