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& i always felt the simple feel of silk, it reminded me of the days in the past. the days when your only care was how long you could play outside. How hard the sun would beat down on you, or how cold it was. would I skin my knee today? would I run faster than I ever have? will the hills be green today?

& the days went by quick, they flew like a flock to their winter summer solace. then to cycle back again in a loop of events. different members, with the same results. it seemed like a prison, seems like an eternity from when i was innocent. when i was blameless.

& then i despaired, "i am trapped in a prison of timepieces and alarm clocks blaring!" "i want out, i would like to be a butterfly please, or a sly fox, or how about even an innocent husky?" days would go by my prison would get more and more fortified. the prison bars became razor blades, the alarm clocks became venomous creeping corner dwellers. the floor of my cell became flesh from which was my foundation. my one window began to shrink, narrow and slim. this was life?

& then....& now....my foolishness was and is the cell. the floor and foundation was my dependance on flesh. the creeping venom was the projected pain that was never needed. self loathing that was as necassary as a round peg in a square hole. the prison bars were always the contemplation that you could visit but not want to touch.

& now I realize how you were there the whole time, teaching me through my own cell. you taught through example. you give hope from within my own confines. you lit the world, now you hold salvation. you died so everyone could live. a superhero above all, the king of kings.

& now the cell floors are gold, the prison bars are written pillars of verses and wisdom. the creeping pain is only the brightest beacon that reminds me of forgiveness. my whole cell is a window now. my view is of a lovely kind. knowing that hope is restored. the redemption is beautiful, and sacrifice is fulfilled.

& its you. & praise.

poem

Wonder/Wander

I sometimes wonder left and right
I sometimes wander to the fight
I definately weaken and wilt without your sight
I always hold the fruit of a temptation, witholding a nibble or bite
Yea, I do bite, I sometimes devour and consume, I sometimes give in without the hint of a fight...

Yet, by grace
Yet, by love
Yet, by sacrafice

I am granted a new sight in a beautiful sunlight, I am able to wander, I am able to wonder. Yea, even ponder. All by your wonder with which you wander. You beautiful satellite.

Photos and such

Well I got about 10 pages of 15 pics each of my wonderful trip to NY done. A sorta photo album. www.t1mpmusic.com/albany1.html . A lot of the pictures look real nice, seems my camera is more of an outside camera. When the son is shining show are the skills of the lens. Today I am going to try and get a remix of Absorptions song finally done and tomorrow a collab with Thruotin done as well. Then I need to work on my wonderful collab with my boy from the other country, Sickmoth. That NY trip threw me way behind, but it was so worth it. Hope those peeps aren't mad. I trust they are not :)

What else? Been working overtime. Here at work. Late!

April posts

Ever since I got back from New York, my spirit is filled and keeps growing. My focus in music is a lot better, and I am more dilligent. Everyday I will be doing pre-production on certain beats and what not. The pre production is more getting familiar with what I have, jamming and noodling with it. So the final laying down/recording period will be easy. I learned that from Matt, and his work ethic. It entails getting intimate with elements you are using, seeing how far they can be pushed, stretched and manipulated. What goes with what at the most oppurtune time. But taking the time to work with the elements so much that the recording is a matter of an hour and you got most of the song done. I started seeing some fruits of that last night. I have been pre-prodding with a song for the last few days and then last night recorded about 80% of it in about 10 minutes. It was easy too. Another big thing I am learning about is getting all your material that you want to use for an album done and mapped out. It seems like I am constantly preparing for music to be done but never getting it done, until last night. So I see the long labor with the sweet and bountiful fruit. I really like working this way as things seem more controlled and crafted. Instead, things would always be off the cuff, and I really think the songs I made before suffered! But, I also feel since I am closer to the Lord, that I am being blessed to craft better songs, and that is the real reason. The motive in my heart.

I am going to try and get back to writing more and poetry, it feels good, and maybe even attempt some psalms. YAY God!